is it possible that we can decisions in life that are so confident that we don't question the alternative? i find that i am quite proficient in analyzing and identifying the choices, but yet i find my self constantly stuck at the fork, unable to decide a side, because each side has it's good and bads, and give the good choice there is a 40% chance there will be a bad outcome or outcome not as good as the expected outcome, etc, etc, etc.
so how do we just make a choice? for some, i guess it's just a matter of "not looking back", for others maybe there was never an alternative -- the choice made = the right choice.
i had one of my best friends remind this weekend that some things in life are permanent, family & good friends. Some things are not, work. I guess for me, the answer should be blaringly obvious, but I just seem not to be able to make the decision and just find quit this job. But I am making an effort to look now, and I have given myself a deadline, end of Oct.
in many ways i want to rectify this career thing so badly because i want to get back to focusing on the real things that matter.
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Friday, September 21, 2007
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Traders, Guns & Money
My favorite excert from my current favorite book
"Resentments between front and back office run deep. The back office is paid less and has old equipment, they resent having to fight for everything that the front office take as their due, they resent toiling unappreciated and without recognition. The fron office resents having to bear the cost of the minions in the back office who make no money but constant claims on what the traders make.
On a wet night in NY, I watched the double-parked limos outside the entrance of a bank. It was late, around 8pm; The traders and salespeople had called up limos on the firm's account to take them home. I watched the back office staff troop out into the rain to make their way to the subway a few blocks away knowing some of themw ould have a commute of an hr or more to get home. I observed the look on their faces as they watched their front office 'colleagues' get in the waiting cars"
It was raining yesterday -- I went home drenched & had a headache.
"Resentments between front and back office run deep. The back office is paid less and has old equipment, they resent having to fight for everything that the front office take as their due, they resent toiling unappreciated and without recognition. The fron office resents having to bear the cost of the minions in the back office who make no money but constant claims on what the traders make.
On a wet night in NY, I watched the double-parked limos outside the entrance of a bank. It was late, around 8pm; The traders and salespeople had called up limos on the firm's account to take them home. I watched the back office staff troop out into the rain to make their way to the subway a few blocks away knowing some of themw ould have a commute of an hr or more to get home. I observed the look on their faces as they watched their front office 'colleagues' get in the waiting cars"
It was raining yesterday -- I went home drenched & had a headache.
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